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[21 Dec 2003|06:19pm] |
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new journal
www.livejournal.com/users/never_the_less0
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| keep your feet on the ground |
[20 Dec 2003|10:49am] |
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i need something to forget how fucked up i really am
i need to stop doing this...not again...i can't go back to this....NO
cut
did you notice...im afraid
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| leave me |
[16 Dec 2003|03:15pm] |
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finch-stay with me |
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i hate everything and everyone..things fucking suck...ahhhhh
axco movie night was last night and it was quite interressting, but fun.
i love marias dad
i can't have you
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| i wish these nights would last forever |
[14 Dec 2003|12:14pm] |
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ohh..wicked good times last night getting ready for the semi-formal and going. Alex and jamil got to my house first and we hung around..then claudio and his mom got here around 7 30 and his mom is sooo cute and soo nice..she took a bunch of pictures of all of us..
then my dad came in the house and was all like 'ohhh..you all look so cute..lisa where is your camera." so once again we took a bunch more pictures..it was alright..
so we got to the dance alittle after 8 and just goofed around in one of the hallways and then finally went into the dance a little while after. i was raped sooo many times by soo many people..like erin tiffany alex franchesca claudio and so many more.. tif picked me up and swung me a couple of times so did claudio. alex just banged me against a wall and i have a mark on my back/hip from the corner of the wall..and everyone kept stepping on my feet cuz i wasn't wearing any shoes. i kept bringing claudio against the vending machinces and he was very intrigued especially when i smacked his ass like 5 times and i know he didn't mind...eveyone once again had an obbesion with smacking my ass.
i felt soo bad tho..everyone kept asking me to dance and i was feeling sooo sick so i kept saying no..i only danced with claudio during slow songs...he also had another obbesion with my shirt because it was silk...but all in all it was a really fun night..we goofed around a lot and i deffinitly can't wait til bowes christmas party it will be fun times. i havent had that much fun with the whole posse in such a long time because we all haven't been together in so long..it was great
alex OUR SONG!! i can't belived it played..that was soo awesome. you totally sang to me i love you soo much alex donegan u make me smile soo much especially when i dont want to. you mean the world to me and i don't know what i would do without you.
later
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| Lifted Or The Story Is In The Soil, Keep Your Ear To The Ground |
[12 Dec 2003|04:45pm] |
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I picked you out Of a crowd to talk to you Said I liked your shoes
You said thanks can I follow you? So it's up the stairs And out of view
No prying eyes I poured some wine I asked your name you asked the time
Now it's two o'clock Yeah the club is closed we're up the block
Your hands on me Pressing hard against your jeans
Your tongue in my mouth Trying to keep the words from coming out
You didn't care to know Who else may have been here before
I want a lover I don't have to love I want a girl who's to sad to give a fuck
Where's the kid with the chemicals? I thought he said he'd meet us here but I'm not sure
I got the money if you got the time He said it feels good I said I'll give it a try
Then my mind went dark We both forgot where your car was parked Let's just take the train
I'll meet up with the band in the morning
Bad actors with bad habits Some sad singers They just play tragic
Now the phone's ringing And the band's leaving Let's just keep touching
Let's just keep keep singing
I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind
But you but you You write such pretty words
But life's no story book Love is an excuse to get hurt And to hurt
"Do you like to hurt?"
"I do! I do!"
"Then hurt me."
Letting Off The Happiness
eh..school was school it was alright
i might see claudio tonight and i really hope i do
i miss him
he going to the dance with me tomorrow aswell
tired franchesca dress on for her today during my free
and she said i look beautiful in it
so i might wear it to the dance
ill probably talk to my love alex tonight and decide what were doing tomorrow cuz we have no clue
well yea thats about it i suppose
ill write more later
i hate some people especially you
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| i write you in this letter |
[10 Dec 2003|10:56pm] |
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i forgot how good it feels to make myself bleed
good times tonight at varsity and crouse with adam and maria
floor 600?
write more later
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| come on kill me |
[09 Dec 2003|05:00pm] |
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when you've gone about things all wrong way bury them here,
with a lifetime you would never regret
in savoring sleep, what do you mean i toss and turn everywhere?
i'll miss you when you're gone in pretending that you meant the world to me
with that you'd call me a liar and in the making mistakes you'll rest incomplete
(i'll be home) in graver mistakes dear mom and dad, i write you in the letter that states
(i'll be moving on) when the new days begun forget your son when he's out on his own
when the hand reads 7:30 and your night begins to sink in the short but faster fall
anxious but calm retort to a mirror that frames your face baring the finest swell
when the day begins to break like the tears that run across your cheek
stand straight and imagine you then in the things and the way they could have been
when the thoughts they race across your chin
here in the Neverend
(i'll be home) in graver mistakes dear mom and dad, i write you in the letter that states scratched through
(i'll be moving on) when the new days begun forget your son when he's out on his own
point your gun in another direction, now that you've cried yourself to sleep
point your gun in another direction, now that you've cried yourself to sleep
here in there after the fire
(before you walk home) peace and figuring will he be home again?
(signal loss and stereo) with wide open windows will she be waiting for
(the sounds surround the overpass) with severed arm placement when the day's dark, old and dead
(a dead man against you) we'll write her a letter with long time passing
(i'll be home) in graver mistakes dear mom and dad, i write you in this letter that states
(i'll be moving on) when the new days begun don't forget Son when he's out on his own
point your gun in another direction now that you've cried yourself to sleep
point your gun in another direction now that you've cried yourself to sleep
here in there after the fire
after the fire
(i'll be home to say i love you and i'll be moving on)
And I'll be bigger
And I'll be bigger
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| were u planning on staying forever..you dont fit in this hole or dont you remember |
[06 Dec 2003|06:13pm] |
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blah..life kinda blows but whatever. i dont really care anymore im just like ..oh whatever.
haha mara and mine adventures of corcoran were soo funny..our scars..ahaha because they didnt show us the right way to get into the cave..lol..i took a bunch of pictures of random things in their school and pictures of adam. its mad funny, ill put them up sometime soon.
i went to the movies last night with sean..finally seeing him after like umm 1 and a half months was def cool. we saw the last samurai...which was a very good movie. i was so paranoid tho because my mom wantd me home at 10 30 so i called my mom at 10 to tell her the movie wasnt going to be done until around then and ill be late but my dad answered the phone and said my mom was asleep so that was good i lucked out there. but the movie didnt end til about 10 45 and then we had to call seans dad to come get us and sean messed with my head soo bad and yea..but it was funny he got his fair share of mock outs aswell. its was like 11 and his dad had to STOP TO GET GAS im like <big>fuck</big>. but my mom called when we were in the gas station and was like where are u and i told her at the gas station and she was fine with it which kinda surprised me so im like <big<cool dude</big>
got home around 11 30 and my mom came downstairs and asked me why i was so late and she did not care at all .so that was so <big>entirely</big> cool. so i sat around downstairs writing and stuff then passed out around 1 because i was SOOO FUCKING TIRED!and i still am.
andreas fucking baby woke me up last night too, it was soo <big>awful</big> she has to have a fake baby for the weekend for health class and im supposed to be baby sitting it, but ha nope..fuck its crying now..ugh..i have to use a key and hold it for like 10 minutes.
yea i pretty much slept all day until like 4 i think it was.. so im well rested now. i wanna see claudio tonight but im not sure if hes home...grr
well i gotta take care of the baby now..later
<i>it's about time that i came clean with you
i'm no longer fine and far from running smooth
i thought that i found myself onto something new
one more line i repeat over and over again
'til i'm blue in the face with a choking regret
as i talk in circles 'round you on my bed
can't say i blamed you one bit when you kept it all inside
when you left that night
it's about time that you get sick of me
no longer fun and so far from interesting
i thought that i found me a cure for feeling old
just one more line to keep me sleeping loudly and cold
in disgrace with a shameful regret
as i talk in tongues to myself in my bed
can't say i blamed you one bit when you kept it all inside
when you left that night
and all that followed fell like mercury to hell
somehow we lost our heads for the last time
now i can't dream since i quit sleeping
and i haven't slept since i met you
and you can't breathe without coughing at daytime
neither can i so what do you say?
your coffin or mine?</i>
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| i wish it all to go away |
[04 Dec 2003|11:06pm] |
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fuck everything i just said
fuck it all
i thought i was finally happy but it was just me lying to myself
i thought the worst was over but its not and there so much to come before the end
i went to corcoran tonight with mara and her friends bill abd stukey, who are soo funny. we had a good time
fuck g2g write later
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[03 Dec 2003|05:44pm] |
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wow...i think i have a crush teehee
ill update later
your blood is escaping me
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| and the rain starts to clear up |
[02 Dec 2003|07:56pm] |
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i can finally be happy, i realized i can stand on my own two feet and be happy and i can be myself and be ok with it. i needed to do this from the start and im so happy i finally realized i dont have to be with anyone to be completely happy.
'sigh of relief'
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[30 Nov 2003|06:00pm] |
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im giving up now
ill run toward the flame
so you wont see me again
I M G O N E
IM NOTHING TO YOU
I NEVER WAS
I THINK I HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE YOU
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| paper trails |
[29 Nov 2003|12:54am] |
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Don't tell me I'm beautiful
...I won't believe you
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| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH |
[28 Nov 2003|03:52pm] |
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i love my new watch!!
and my new mp3 player!
SOOO TIRED!
dont think im going to jennys party tonight
feeling really sick
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| i wish these days would last forever |
[23 Nov 2003|03:46pm] |
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celldweller-i believe you |
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well last night was fucking awesome
i spent the night at alexs,my love. we had an awesome time. we talked the whole night about a tons of things. like how guys suck and they all should die.
we bounced bouncy balls off our hips and they flew across the room, it was mad funny. we made her dad go out and get pizza and wings cuz i had such a craving for wings.
her dad finally go the pizza around like i dunno 9. we ate and ending staying in the kitchen and talking for a good hour and a half then we went up to her room and had lots of sex. you know youre all jealous
alexs stomach makes weird noises from the 8 bottles of water she consumed that night, it was so awful, but wicked funny.
we talked for hours and we eventually went to bed around 2 cuz i was soo tired, decided to get up around 9 40 because my mom was coming to et me around 10 30. my mom came and i had to leave me love. we were sad. i miss her now.
i had a great time tho and we need to do that more often
came home ate, slept, did my fucking english project and i still have math homework to do too, which sucks a big one, maybe ill just do it during my free tomorrow or something.
so yep, im bored now.
later
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| these days go by like trucks and trains |
[21 Nov 2003|10:12pm] |
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time for a real update i suppose
well this week has been...full of ups and downs
ive been so sick and still am. i have strep throat and a cold on top of that, so ive been feeling pretty shitty lately. and im so tired of being sick but thank the lord i fianlly have medication that will make me better, but now im all drowsy and tired, but w/e i dont care
i have a free period now, which makes me sooo fucking happy becuase its during franchescas lunch so i can go and hang out with her, omg ive missed her soo much, were both so happy we finally have something together!
well..im think im gonna be done with guys for a while, i cant deal with being in another relationship atleast not right now, im not emotional or physical capable of doing so. so im just not going to.
i think i gave claudio strep..sorry hun!
and i dont know what to do about him either, i deffinitly dont want to get hurt by him, not at all. and im not liking the while man whore concept, so ya know, ill see where it goes...if he can prove me wrong then fine..well take it from there...maybe he does really like me, who knows...i just dont want too attached to him, and then him go and hock up with another chick, so yea...i really want to talk to him right now, but eh, i dont really want to call him, maybe i will later.
well yea this weekend..i hope will be good. andrea is going to albany with erika so i get my room to myself..yay!! im happy about that.
ive been talking to sean too....who knows
so yea, later
xoxo
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[21 Nov 2003|08:27pm] |
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is this it...
is this all im going to be?
is this all im aiming to be?
and the clock stricks midnight
and im standing alone
in the middle of the street
waiting for the rain
to come again
and wash me away
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| gift of darkness, where shadows, tall trees and random graves lay awaken by fear |
[20 Nov 2003|10:51pm] |
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wow im so out of it right now
ALL guys suck
ALL OF THEM
sean called me today
i think im better off alone
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| wow...this is so me |
[20 Nov 2003|08:43pm] |
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You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.
"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."
Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.
As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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she screams
but no one
will ever
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